Journey of Self-Discovery
Finding Your Authentic Self
Figuring out who you are and who you are supposed to become is a lifelong journey. I feel that most of my life has been spent mirroring others and picking up on their favorite things, such as colors, music, clothing, and more. Sometimes, I wonder if I am who I am solely because of certain people. Do I even like this music, or this color, or this way of life? Who am I without all the influences I've absorbed over the years?
My favorite color came from my mom; in fact, a lot of my personality seems to stem from her. I admired my mom. I was her mini-me. But was green ever truly my favorite color, or did I just go along with it for so long that it's become ingrained? I can't go back and change what has already molded me into the person I am. However, now I take everything into consideration. Who am I?
For a while, I was embarrassed by the things I loved, such as metal music, wearing chains and ripped jeans. People looked down upon others who enjoyed emo culture; at least back then, it was worse. They saw how I looked or what I listened to and immediately put labels on me, not knowing that I hold this entire other persona.
I have the feminine urge to wear dresses and skirts and to have my nails and hair done, but I also have an edgy side that many people don’t agree with. I got married at a young age, which led me to believe that I had to grow up, start dressing classier, and become a housewife. Over time, I realized I was losing the person I am deep inside. I was wearing a mask to please the people around me. I lost my sense of self.
It wasn't until I noticed my friends still acting their age that I realized I had forced myself to grow up and act like someone I am not. In reality, I am allowed to be my authentic self. Being married didn't mean I had to change everything that made me who I am. Yes, I needed to change certain aspects to become more mature due to my young age. However, I love who I am, what I wear, what I listen to, my friends, and my lifestyle.
The second I started leaning back into my old self, I began to feel happy again and excited about life. I am now a grown-up paying bills, cooking my own food, and making my own life decisions while also being my authentic self, which I never thought I could be. In my mind, a grown-up was supposed to be a certain way, but truthfully, we’re all trying to figure it out. Life, our purpose, and who we are in general is a journey that I’m ecstatic to continue.
Creating Space for Authentic Connections
People may disagree with your way of life, personality, or style. They may not want to be your friend, boyfriend, or girlfriend, and that's perfectly fine. In fact, they are creating space for the people who will accept your true self and love you for who you are.
The longer we continue to settle for people who don't accept us, the longer we prolong the arrival of those who are meant for us and the life we are designed to live. If your relationship isn’t working out and you've tried everything in your power to make it work, leave. If your friends aren't aligning with your beliefs, leave. We can't afford to waste time with people who aren't meant for us.
Remove the things and people that no longer resonate with you, and work on who you are meant to become. The more you enhance your well-being, the more you will begin to attract like-minded individuals. People who will love you to the core, not just the surface.
Trust in your journey, and know that by being your true self, you’ll not only attract the right people into your life but also inspire others to do the same. Start today. Embrace who you are, and let your authenticity light the way!
